(Week 22) I prepare to pass the baton on

I realised something this week. The end of an era is getting closer. The end of my childhood.

I read something in my ‘Lad to Dad’ book the other night, and it made me think, the day my little girl is born, is the signal for me to become a fully fledged grown up, and no longer a kid. It’s now my turn to be a parent to my daughter and to ensure she has a fantastic childhood. If I can give my little girl a childhood anywhere near as good as my parents gave me, then I know she will have a very good one.

I obviously knew that this ‘event’ was going to change my life forever, but I hadn’t thought about how it brings to an end to my childhood. I know I am an adult already, but I’ve still been the baby of my family, I’ve always been the youngest and I’ve always been a big kid. I’m sure I will continue to be a big kid, but now I have to pass the baton of being the baby on to an actual baby. I imagine she’ll do a better job of being a baby than me, just.

It has made me think back to my childhood as well, and it was great fun. If I could write a blueprint for the perfect childhood, that would pretty much be it. But I’m sure most people would say the same about theirs.

It also made me sad, realising that certain people who watched me grow up wouldn’t be here to watch me take my next step. Certain people who impacted hugely on my childhood and my life in general.

In more happy news, I felt ‘little Lara’ kick this week, it was the first time I had felt it and it blew my mind! It wasn’t very strong as she is still pretty small, but I definitely felt it. If you’ve never been lucky enough to feel a baby kick, I don’t know how best to describe it to you. But just put it this way, it’s amazing!

Lara visited a osteopath this week, to try to ease her back pains. I think it helped a little bit, but the pains just seem to be coming back, and changing and appearing in different places. I hate to see her suffering like this, and I just wish I knew how to help.

We also got ‘little Lara’s’ first pice of furniture today, and probably her most important piece. We got her a cot bed, from John Lewis. It’s supposed to last her from the day she is born, until she is about 5 – so quite the investment. I’ve posted a picture of it below, it’s quite large for such a little person isn’t it?

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I can’t wait to be a Dad!